thursday evening and you're already plastered by six oclock as if it matters like the sun gives a fuck about your vices dusk will still come there's plenty of night left time for you to empty out that box time for you to text him what the fuck? time to pay back your chinese neighbours for all those nights you dreamt in angry mandarin yeah they'll hear you yell the hip like it's so tragic you're not cordelia and you're not an alcoholic it's just a little tough when the night'll be so cold they're all out moving on and you're still here growing old yeah her eyes are just like marilyn monroe's big and blue and just a little hurt and yeah he walks like a high plains drifter but lord knows his hands have never broken dirt yeah they'll hear you yell the hip like it's so tragic your crisis of faith in this killerwhaletank where you're the whale and they're the chum and all the water is your fucking indecision

do you remember the time you left me bleeding? acting like you weren't proud you said it was just an accident like the hindenburg or catwoman do you remember talking about england like it was inevitable? futures born after a few months so little time to fall in love your heart beats faster when i say that maybe we could work if i listened to your sternum more than my doubts i remember the night that i met you your sleeping breath on my chest i never saw your bedroom floor i never felt more at home your heart beats faster when i say that and my rib still aches we shared blood, we shared dreams what more could it take? your heart beats faster when i say that what more could it take? your heart beats faster when i say that what more could it take?

father please don't be a stranger to me you've known me since i was a little unwashed heathen you know i never thought that i'd be a thief but have you seen the sun falling through those leaves? i never thought of sin i never thought of hell i thought that god wouldn't mind sharing his apples i come here every sunday or at least i used to that was before i knew the lure of gasoline but please know how much i miss you please know how much i miss you please know how much i miss you please know how much i miss you i know that john never swam the rems he never saw the way that she moves he'll never know my sense of speed and i'll never be lost, lost in greece but i think i know exactly how he felt i know what it's like to be beloved and you know when i'm gone I'll miss these black woods and when I'm shoveling through six feet of snow i'll think of your church wavering in the summer before the bombs dropped when i was a son of thunder please know how much i miss you please know how much i miss you please know how much i miss you please know how much i miss you

i summoned baphomet on a dreary tuesday i don't know why but it seemed appropriate i slit my wrist and bled onto his star i drew in chalk in a wendy's parking lot agios baphomet agios baphomet agios baphomet agios baphomet there was the roll of thunder and a tearing in my soul from the bowels of the earth came no demon, just a goat agios baphomet agios baphomet agios baphomet my son my son, what have you done? said this fucking goat to me don't you know who you're fucking with have you never heard dark fortress? i said goat, don't feed me shit you know as well i do, baphomet has tits yeah well the dark lord has shit to do don't you ever watch the evening news? so call your local ona and chant up a different deity agios alastoros agios alastoros agios alastoros so i drew a few more circles and slit the other wrist starting to feel so weak i almost bought a baconator agios alastoros agios alastoros agios alastoros agios alastoros so again with the thunder and all that other shit i said except this time there was no goat just a demon with beetle's wings hey there buddy boy what can I help you with? did you kill your wife or something? i said no man I'm pretty gay and kinda lost, could use some advice well son you just can never forget that you're a beautiful soul and if someone says otherwise tell them to fuck off and die cause you don't need to prove yourself just live the best that you can then he took off on his shiny wings and broke the dome of the sky and came a raining from the new void a hail of burning fetuses